It is one of the flaws I have, which I’ve come to despise so dearly. It is a toxic habit to have. It affects my daily life and it affects the people around me. It causes me to doubt my beliefs and not trust what I really know.
I hate it.
I need to stop overthinking before I lose the important parts of my life to doubts and misery. I know that if I stop this habit I will be happier. I know that if I allow myself to trust my thoughts and not doubt everything around me then I would be free from useless stress. I will be able to interact with my friends and loved ones better.
I have to start today.
I have to start right now.
Actions speak louder than words… right?
Not completely right.
In a world where people are quick to judge, even a few words can change everything. The wrong words, the wrong tone, the wrong intention, everything thing that leaves your mouth is immediately judged. Any explanation falls on deaf ears. I honestly wish things did not work that way. A few words are spoken and you can be judged to be a bad person or to be unfit to be someone’s significant other. Life sucks that way. All the good things you’ve done disappear in an instant with just one mistake, one misjudgment, one moment where you let your mouth run for no good reason.
You can lose everything with just a few words and no amount of change or sorry’s can make them okay.
Watch your tongue.
Okay. This isn’t working out. I mean I can sustain a blog that is purely based on my being an aspiring writer. That is because in less than a month’s time. I’ll be a freshman (for the third time) and start medical school. That makes me an aspiring physician, but also an aspiring student (in the sense that I want good grades). I also aspire to maintain good relationships with my friends and family despite the huge change that will happen when school starts (or so I’ve been warned). In other words, I aspire to be human. It sounds weird (probably extremely normal-sounding), but it means something to me. I can’t really explain it. Eventually, I will.
I am another aspiring human with the desire to live life everyday as me and just me.
Changes will happen soon.
Maybe I can sustain a good and sensible blog this time?
So, my last decent (not really) post said I was finishing up my master’s thesis at the time… and I did finish. I graduated last March and I was on vacation ever since. But you didn’t touch your blog (I scold myself harshly). I know and it sucks. I just lost the drive to keep posting. Honestly, academic stress pushes me to write and write creatively. It’s weird I know.
In a month’s time, I’ll be in school again, extremely full-time. I don’t know if I’ll be posting or writing, but I’ll have to see. I don’t want to stop working on my books. I’m gonna be a freshman for the third time, so wish me luck!
Sorry guys! I’ve been busy finishing up my thesis. Hope to get back to writing and stuff by the end of the month!
I call a ‘Pause’ on my challenge! I’ve got a migraine and it’s stopping me from getting any writing done. I’ll continue it tomorrow! Sorry!